It's Finally OVER!!

I have to admit something, that for anyone who really knows me, is kind of shocking. I am so glad that Christmas is over! I got up December 26 and took my tree down, put all my decorations away, and was actually HAPPY about the whole thing! If it wasn't for Whitney, I wouldn't have put a tree up at all this year. We could have just skipped the whole Christmas season, and I would have been so relieved!
Getting together with all the family was really difficult. I wanted to just hide in my room and not come out. We partied with the Harper family at our home this year, and normally that's fun, but this year it was just noisy and very unenjoyable for me (sorry fam! I still love you). Being with my family Christmas Day was tough, 13 kids from 14 to 6 months running around and screaming..ugh. I love those kids, but I just didn't feel like I was dealing well with anything Christmas Day.
It's odd to feel glad that something I usually love is over, but I am so very, very relieved. Now I have just 11 months before I have to deal with it again!

Merry Christmas

May you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Love U Kim...

I am very proud of you for creating this blog. You're an inspiration to everyone who is affected by depression. Thank you for taking the first step toward recovery :).

Love you

Johnster Monster

Lexapro Day 2

My doctor prescribed Lexapro for my depression on Tuesday, and told me I should notice a difference in about 2 weeks. With as bad as today has been, I'm wondering if I can stand two more weeks of dealing with feeling this way. I'm also wondering how people who have meds that take three or four weeks make it through...is it the hope that somehow the medication will help? Is it their support group? How do they do it? How will I do it?

A Joyful Journey

As I spent time thinking about what to name this blog, one title kept coming to mind...

I kept thinking, "what a dumb name." But the thought persisted as I reflected about my current mortal journey. The more I thought about life, the more I realized that my current state was anything but "joyful." I have been suffering from depression for several years now, but lately, it has been dreadful.

At first, I didn't want to admit that I had a problem. I thought that maybe I was going crazy, that being depressed made me not normal; however, as the depression got deeper and deeper, I realized that I was in trouble... you know, when you seriously start to consider that everyone you love might be better off without you.

SO... I confided in my hubby, who was a little shocked at first, that I would consider suicide. He got pretty scared and made sure I had an appointment scheduled with our family doctor ASAP. He even went with me to make sure I got there and was honest with the doctor about the severity of the problem. That's when it really hit me that I should keep a public blog to help myself and others with depression overcome it. That's why I named it, "A Joyful Journey."

To all of you who suffer as I do, I wish you joy, even if for the moment. I hope we can begin to recognize the small joyful moments again, and that through their acknowledgment we can begin to discover the delightfulness of living again.

-KH